Not that you're trying to be a virgin or anything...but these are some of the life affirming books and some of my favorite books overall that have helped me on this sometimes lonely walk. The Rock Says is a particular favorite! :-) lol
1) The Bible ....not hard here...but the key is to get a Study Bible with a Concordance
2) Strong's Exhaustive Concordance of The Bible - Look up both the original Hebrew and Greek meanings of virtually every word in the Bible, can be quite eye opening.