Age Ain't Nothing But a Number...

So in my Post "...Repressed Female", I referred to Aaliyah's famous song, "Age Ain't nothing but a Number" and how I had perfected my craft of not leaving puberty in my mind. I was...the Black, Female Peter Pan. And I think I'll come back to this thought now, because recently I've actually had issues with this very thing.

Playa Play ON!!!

Sooo....recently I almost began dating...and by almost, I mean...just that. It's that classic story of the popular guy who only goes after the nerdy girl BECAUSE...he wants everyone to want him.

What is my Worth????

Now that I have entered a new phase of my life where I am actually seen as a viable part of society....as a woman...and not a girl...LOL, I have begun to wonder what it is that men see in me that makes them want to have me around.

How to Get With a Baller

In the past month I have racked up so many stories that my mind is trying to grab hold of one to tell y'all that won't put anyone that I know and love on full blast.....and I think I have the perfect story to relate....that of course will accompany my own witty banter :-).

The story actually starts with a question, that I feel like has been asked in many different ways by many different women to varrying degrees...

"What does it take to get a Baller's attention?"

P!nk - F***ing Perfect

I'm pretty sure I am not supposed to like this song...well, no that's not what I meant to say. What I meant to say, is that I am pretty sure I am not supposed to like the explicit version better than the clean one...and I can't say that I do....exactly, but I do like to fill in the astericks because this song is PERFECT.

The Attack on Black Women

 I know I am late, but better late than never, right?...Anyway.

A week or so ago a scientist from Japan claimed to have evidence that Black women were deemed to be the most unattractive form of all people...not just womanhood, but ALL people, period. He claimed that the raised level of testosterone in Black women caused this, while the same raised level of testosterone in Black men made them more attractive.

And while I could attack him as a Scientist...the point is not whether or not he is or is not a scientist, nor is it whether or not he is right...the point is, is that he is.

Jazmine Sullivan speaks the TRUTH

"Fear"

I'm scared to try cause I'm scared to fail
I'm scared to die cause I'm scared of hell
I'm scared to kiss scared to hug
I'm scared of sex cause I'm scared to touch

I'm scared to look cause I'm scared to see
I'm scared of you cause I'm scared of me
I'm scared to fly cause I'm scared to crash
I'm scared to move on so I live in the past

I'm scared to fight cause I'm scared to bleed
I'm scared of love cause I'm scared he'll leave
I'm scared of drugs I'm scared to drink
I'm scared to swim cause I'm scared to sink

I'm scared to learn cause I'm scared of truth
Don't wanna gain weight cause I'm scared of food
I'm scared to think that the label dropped me
I'm scared to think of my album floppin

And that is just the first verse. 

I'd write about it, but I think the words she penned for her "Fearless" album, says it all. How many things do we ALL -NOT- do in order to -NOT- feel pain? 

I know that the first stanza implies that I am a virgin because of my fear of touch...but I've already explained that I am, so there's no need to go into that. Well....I'm not really scarred of touch, but I do not TRUST a great deal, and that which I do not trust, I do NOT want to Touch me...:-).

Just food for thought...I hope that you, whoever you may be, are not NOT doing things for the wrong reasons. Fear of an Almighty Being is one thing, fear of all of the above...is quite another.

Book of the Month: Wild at Heart

 

 This month's book is the companion to last month's book, Captivating. In fact it was actually written BEFORE Captivating, by John Eldredge. I do believe that this book is insightful and helpful for both sexes, just as the last one was and is. The biggest reason why it is helpful is because it is written with the heart to unearth the Truth of a man, not to control him. It does string together a bunch of should's and if only's to shame or degrade men, but instead goes to the heart of the damage done to men and fills it with God's gift of purpose and life. 

I can say this with a fact, that it has been a helpful resource to me as I have sought to understand my brothers and earthly father. It helped me to understand my role in a lot of the stories that have happened around me, and most importantly it helped me to forgive a lot of perceived wrongs where men were concerned.

To me, this is a book that can help women to understand the desires lurking behind the blank stares and guarded hearts of their beloved ones. It can help bring understanding to the innate differences in their sons and daughters. It can help to bring understanding to how a childhood wound to a boy can lead to deathly scars for women who may deal with the man. But more than that, it is a book of healing, and promise and hope.

Judging a Book by its First Page...

We are often told NOT to judge a book by it's cover, and completely understand the logic and sense of that. Both in literary works AND in people, but what if we judge them by their first page...? 

In any case, the hardest transition I made was going from books with pictures to books without the glorious representation of the written word. I can clearly remember thinking that nothing, NOTHING would be as exciting as my Berenstein Bear Books. To get us to start reading from the young adult sections, my Mom told us this sage advise, who her mother had told her at the same age,

Read the first page, if you can't get past that, then put the book down.

Sometimes I Lie to Myself

Our Nation's Supreme Court..I think

Yep, I said it. Sometimes, out of self preservation, I lie to myself. I lie so that I can feel better about a certain thing, or in order to get my way, or just because. And sometimes I do it accidentally.

Like the time(s) that I said that I hated my period, and that I wished that it would go away and never come back. Yeah, that was a lie. I mean at the time I said it though, I was bloated, and in pain. My lower abdomen felt like like little elves were jumping up and down on my ovaries using pitchforks. And worse, whenever I found a comfortable position, finally, I'd have to get back up and change my mini diaper for women or tampon because I was continuously leaking blood like a bad faucet.

EmergencY!!!!

Stuck in the rain...no umbrella

I've been thinking about a lot of different things lately and I realized that I haven't told a good story in a while...not that this is a good story. But It Is A story. So, you'll get to hear it.

I thought about it, when I got caught on the street in the middle of a rain storm with no umbrella. I mean one should always be prepared for the unexpected right? Right. Well that brought me back to a day in college when the powers that be decided to hand out condoms to everyone during our 12 o'clock lunch break in the school's courtyard. You're wondering how in the world the a rain storm and condoms can ever be connected...wait for it....

How to Remain a Virgin??

So, I was looking for something to write about and I googled "remain Virgin" and I got this wiki article that had me agreeing and scratching my head at the same time.

I mean for a teenager who is having a hard time it's a great article. I mean I agreed with everything...until I saw under "warnings" -

Don't publish that you're a virgin. Virginity is a personal thing and should only be disclosed to people you completely trust. You can be made fun of if you're not careful. You need to trust the person before telling them. If he/she has earned your trust then, and only then can you proceed.

Oops.

Book of This Month

In lew of my added section on some of my favorite books, I'm adding this just as something for those who would like a nice book that affirms them as females and can help explain, we of the deeper waters to men.

It's called Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul by John and Stasi Eldredge.
It is a Christian based book, but I think the beauty that it gives permission for women to unleash is astounding. This book literally changed the way I viewed myself in this whole realm of this world. It was like the best unlocking of the Truth of my soul that anyone has ever given me. I was set free...be...the wonderful and wondrously made individual that God set on this Earth. I became unashamed of my tears, of my fears and of my desires. But that is just me. This book is, after all, an interpretation of the Truth of the Holy Bible, it may not speak to you the way it did to me, but I dearly hope that it would and will.

Let me know if you've read this before, or if you have other books that lift your spirits!!

Re: Single, Saved and Sexin'

So, today I found a link to a very disturbing article about having sex AND being saved from one of my new favorite online magazines; So Divine Magazine. The link was actually on their Facebook site, but I'll provide the link here. The name of the article says enough, but the comments, and the article itself is what literally had me mad...and then sad.

Mad, because, once again, now I'm going to be placed in the same boat as this woman at some point, by some man who believes that evolution will eventually lead me to understand that my God of the Bible is obsolete. But more than that, because I know that I am going to get hated on by those who believe that this article actually sets women free...instead of binding her even further.

Sad, because, the Truth has once again been subverted. I can understand why, when looking at society, but the thing is, is that either a thing IS or is NOT the Truth. And even if we hate the way it is told to us or by whom it is told...the Truth is still the Truth. 

Chivalry is Dying Needlessly

This is yet another response to my cousin ABCiE...I'm getting tired of these by the way!!!!!!!! LOL. Not really though. She wrote this article and this article and this is my answer to both, because to me both go in the same realm.

I'd say that I am going to tread lightly...but I don't think I can logically do so, because the problem as I see it is an unintended response to women becoming more independent. You know the whole "I am woman Hear me Roar" sort of thing. I will NOT say that Feminism is the cause, because I think the word gets over used and is vastly misunderstood. But the Destiny's Child Independent Woman, IS the unintentional problem.